H came by and stayed for several hours, and we talked and watched TV. He was very affectionate (not in a lecherous way; no kissing, heavy petting, or more), and he made great efforts to maintain comforting physical contact.
Summary of events: *I am the source of all misery, grief, and agony [paraphrased from H's words] *He "apparently" contributed in some small ways to problems (e.g., not sharing his frustrations, keeping feelings bottled); my sins are much worse *It makes his stomach hurt to think about coming back home *He has been happier staying at his mother's house (Duh! If I could stay in my childhood bedroom and have my mom take care of me, then I'd be much happier, too!) *A divorce is the best solution, in his eyes *Things will never change, and he just wants to be happy *It makes him sad that it took his moving out to get my attention about the things that have bothered him *He loves me very much (so weird) *He'll invite me to dinner one night this week *Do I just want him to move back here and be unhappy? Is that what I want?
I asked H if he would continue to think about things, and he said that he would. He said he has no plans to file D papers in the near future but that that is his eventual plan. He also said he would read a book about separation if I were to give him one.
Despite his negative outlook, I can't help but still feel like there's some hope here.
Payday is in a few days. Time to call a DB coach!
Oh, I almost forgot--H also said that he thinks he may quit his job and get another job. He's going to decide this week. He asked me what I thought, and I told him that he should work where he is happiest. What I did think but didn't say was this: SERIOUSLY?? You're changing jobs AGAIN?? How can you not see that this is NOT all about me? How can you not recognize your personal unhappiness? But I kept my mouth shut.
He DID like the living room, by the way. It is awesome, if I do say so myself.
