just posting some thoughts...

I'm really pissed to think H left 5 days ago and not even a "I landed" text...nothing. Now before you start blasting me and saying why I should care remember I'm just journaling.

I'm really pissed when I think about this. It's making me really mad...makes me sick to my stomach. I am obviously not detached but that doesn't matter right now. I know I'm headed for D so that is my goal - to NOT care.

This would be so much better if he would have left 4 months ago in a respectful manner. I am embarrassed to say he is/was my H.

Ok I'm done.


M44 H41
M20 T23
3 older teens
Bomb Nov 09 "i'm not happy"
EA Nov 09 w/coworker
Another PA in Mar 10
I Filed Apr 10
D final Dec 10