Don't think about that... just keep attituding... part of your attitude that is helping YOU is you NOT worrying about his reactions... once you flip that switch and look over your shoulder you throw the attitude out the window..
Just keep looking forward, if he follows you, that's great, if he doens't... THAT is GREAT too... unlike HIM.. YOU are headed in teh RIGHT direction... so keep going and don't look behind you to worry if he's watching or not
The best example we can give you mb28 is a tightrope walk.. do NOT look DOWN.. just keep looking forward and you will get there... your goal is to be a great mom and a great person people want to be around... keep heading there. If your H doesn't want to join you there then that's HIS loss right?
If you start lookin down again you're gonna fall... just keep movin ahead towoards your goals