Thanks everyone. It's amazing how many of you have told me what I needed to do and the attitude I needed for months, but could never do it. I feel so much stronger now than I did a few weeks ago. I'm not sure if my new attitude will fix my M and stop the D, but I now know that I will be better off for it no matter what happens. Thanks to everyone here that has kept me strong and kept giving me advice, even when I didn't take it and act on it.
Together 16 years Married 12 years Me 36 H 34 D9 & S6 Separated 12/3/09 Confirmed A 1/25/10 Exposed A 1/26/10 H hired L, but not filed yet 1/27/10