Running out of time.

[Cie la vie]

Thought I would checkin with a update following the weekend.

The kids and I enjoyed two great days of fun and adventure together. I can say without hesitation that there is one truly positive development from this disaster and that has been the incredible bond I am forming with my young twins.

Being a single father requires me to provide for their every need and that is something I simply wouldn't have to do while our marriage was intact. I'm relishing and embracing this whole heartedly. It is, however, a large and exhausting task at times but very rewarding.

We enjoyed the beautiful weather and got outside both days. I took them for a hike Saturday and to the local bouldering area on Sunday and play ground sessions both days. The Metrolink train runs right past the bouldering area and my Son loved seeing the train go through the tunnel as did my daughter to a lesser degree.

No naps on Saturday but I did get both on them down on Sunday for about an hour and a half.

As far as me I have managed to remain in a good frame of mind now for over a week, which may be a record. I have refrained from visiting my W's facebook page which represents the only opportunity for me to have any idea what is going on in her life. I feel more detached everyday and that is a blessing.

Today is her B-day and I decided to forgo getting her a card on behalf of the children. One from me was never an option. I'm not sure how the lack of a card will be received by her.

It is simply another milestone such as Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years and Valentines day that we failed to share together for the first time in 20+ years.

I now no longer visualize what she is dong but rather what I want my future to look like and I gotta tell you that is a much prettier and healthier view.