The tunnel of darkness

[kjensen]

We're coming home tomorrow. So far the trip has been OK-some meltdowns (D14 has the worst sunburn from her Florida trip and now a sinus infection!)..but overall a good trip.

Before we left town I spoke to H and asked him if I should pay for D12's summer trip out of our money market..he said.."Just do what you want"..in a tone like I would do what I want anyway..so I didn't feel too good about that and have "done" nothing. I will wait for it to be agreed upon in our temporary orders this week.

Its hard being on this trip without H, he and I have been to Moab so often together, before we were married and after. Lots of memories here. But its nice to spend time with the girls.

I think I'm still going through the steps of grieving..I'm thinking it takes a long time! But I start the Rebuilding class on Sunday so hopefully that will help me process this loss more completely.

I talked to D14 about therapy and although she says she doesn't think it will help her, she said she'd go if I wanted her to..such a far cry from her sister's reaction! So we'll see.

Hoping to make the last night here a good one. Off to Arches!