Today, I don't want to do anything. I had the first day of my new class (for the month). I'd love more than anything to just sleep the rest of the day off, but I know that's not practical, especially when you're a mom... and about to pick your son up from the bus stop in less than 10 minutes.
Yesterday, ExCautious was somewhat kind to me, but not affectionate in really any way. Just civil. He half-heartedly gave me a hug before leaving. I half-heartedly accepted the hug. Kind of wish that either one of us was in this 100%. Unfortunately, I'm too busy GALing and worrying about backfire from all the issues that have gone unaddressed to even be close to 100% anymore. Maybe 80 to 85. Then the pressure from friends and family to "give it up" is probably not helping my chances much either.
Weekend was ok. Not fabulous or supurb, just okay. I definitely got out of the house and did something with my life. Spent a lot of time drinking and dancing, but I didn't send a single drunken text message or phone call ExCautious's way. So I GALed, but it felt empty when I came home to my own bed alone and by myself. And then the sleep wasn't much good either.
Today, I'm wishing I had a weekend to recover from my weekend.
Goals for today are out the window. I just want to relax and not feel the pressure to be anyone I don't want to be or do anything I don't want to do.
Me: 26 Ex: 27 Son: 5
Divorced: 3/2010 Each day is another opportunity to do it right.
