Maybe now is a good time for you to see a counselor. Someone like a life coach that can help you to lose the depression and regain the spark that is life.
One of the great things I am thankful for this site is that it prepares you to move on in case of the worst. I've come to realize that most of these situations are not as bad as they seem and there is a happy life to be expected even if ones marriage ends in a D.
If you want a good example of where you could end up if you let depression eat at you, read the first post on the following thread...
