All in all it was good. I had my D but the boys were with my W. Still working on detaching and feel quite depressed these days.
This morning W said good morning and asked me how the weekend was. I did not respond (i know I should have but I am still very hurt right now). When she left she said have a good day. I wished her the same. I do not look at her. I am just trying to get her out of my mind right now.
Trying to remain as positive as I can but I feel like the last confrontation truly did me in. So I just try and enjoy the kids as much as I can.
Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
I just realized that she has removed all of her jewlery from the house. Don't know what that means...maybe being used to pay for the L?
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
So many different possible reasons for it...so many reasons that one could waste an entire week wondering why, she did that, she does what she did, she does what she does...
It's almost like a waste of time.
Experience is a brutal teacher, but you learn. My God, do you learn. - C.S. Lewis
Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B. - Jack3Beans
Listen without defending; Speak without offending - FaithinAK
Your right Jack - a waste of time. I have to tell you man I feel like crap! I am starting to realize that everything that I have worked for is probably gone. My M is over. My R with the two oldest is not getting better. Things just suck right now. I know you guys are going to tell me to GAL, detach, etc. I am a totally broken man right now. Don't feel like working, don't feel like much of anything. Shite just sucks. I'll probably be taken to the cleaners on top of all of this. So I just may become the one thing I never wanted to be - a single dad in some small apt with nothing. Yep - life is just dandy these days. About the only thing I have is my R with my D. That's it. Sorry man - just feeling really down today.
Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
This will be my last post for a while. I need to take a step back and just really focus on healing. I hurt. I am in a fair amount of pain. I just need some time. I want to thank everyone for your kind words, encouragement and support. Thank you.
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
Maybe now is a good time for you to see a counselor. Someone like a life coach that can help you to lose the depression and regain the spark that is life.
One of the great things I am thankful for this site is that it prepares you to move on in case of the worst. I've come to realize that most of these situations are not as bad as they seem and there is a happy life to be expected even if ones marriage ends in a D.
If you want a good example of where you could end up if you let depression eat at you, read the first post on the following thread...
Eric, hope you'll come back, this is a great place to vent or cry or whatever you need to do to get through this. Nobody will judge you, we all are/were where you are now. It will be tough to go through the lowest of lows all by yourself. Don't loose hope, after the darkest night there is always a bright morning.
I hope you'll talk to us soon. (((hugs)))
M53 H54 D17 M33Y T38Y Bomb OW 09/09 OUT 10/09 BACK 11/09 OUT 01/10 WANTS TO R 04/10 BACK with OW 05/10 Wants to Reconcile 05/11 I said NO
