[I was a whole human being before I met him, and I still am. I was intelligent, sexy, warm, adventurous...and nothing has changed about me. I f---- up a lot of things in our M and nothing I can do can change that.]

You are still a whole human being and you WILL get your groove back!!!

[I also see that he is the one who is broken. Love is a choice and he chose not to love me.]

That's right...he has made the choice for now. People don't make good choices when they are hurting or depressed and that is why you have to work on yourself so that YOU will make good choices!!!

[How can I forgive myself?]

I, too, struggle with this but I feel that as we make our changes and become stronger, more confident and find ourselves, we will find that forgiveness within ourselves.

FM-I think you and I are on the same roller coaster ride but you must be a couple of seats behind me becuase I had the same feelings you did a couple of days ago...working my way back up!!! You have been so strong and posted really great things to a lot of people on here! You just need to believe them for yourself!!!


M48 H53
M16 T18
S16 D13
SS30
H drops bomb PA/8-30-09
H leaves 12-30-09
D filed by H 2-10
H asks to come home 4-11
Piecing