Stay strong! I understand, especially about the kids. I am scared to death what a D would do to my kids. We have realized the mistakes we made and are working to make ourselves better people. We did not abandon our family, we are actively working to keep the family together. Our spouses are the ones who have stopped working and trying. We can't control them. You have nothing to forgive yourself for.
I can't fully understand what it's like for you since you are physically seperated. My W and I are still under the same roof and, therefore, so are my kids. My W hasn't really been there for quite a while, you know? Would I loose all of my resolve if she were to leave? Probably for a while, but I am working on myself and, again, can't control what she does.
You have been so strong for so long!! You can keep this up for as long as you need to! Isn't the roller coaster great!
