Healing my Heart part 8

[fightingirish]

Thank you nc... I appreciate your words and support.

I will speak to him in the next couple of days when things have calmed down about the mc. I know we need it, its getting him to go.

Im beginning to get numb to all of this.. his little fits of anger are just that "fits" . Im not sad about it, just fed up. Under other circumstances I would be crying and upset about it, im passed that, I didn't shed a tear last night, Just plain sick of it.

I also think what has happend is that, he is gone so much I have taken over the role of Mother and father and somehow I believe that when he disiplines them its just not the way I would have. He yells and carries on and that is not going to help matters at all and he doesn't get that.

This has taken its toll on me as you know not only emotionally but physically. My headaches have gotten so bad, and im always tired.

I wish I could turn back the clock and do things so differently, but I know I can't.

S7 seems ok right now, he's got a bad cold and was up all night with his asthma. He says he is still angry with his dad. S7 tends to hold grudges, and unfortunately he gets that from me.. although Im much better than I used to be.

Thanks again nc