My Story

[Wired]

Hiya Prairie,
I went to a friends birthday party this weekend, seen a bunch of couples that we have known for 20 years or more. I will admit that it was tough knowing the struggles that everyone of them had been through but still remained together. Had a good time though and laughed harder then I have in months. Just wish my wife would have been with me. I felt like the 3rd wheel.

I think the lonliness at the house is starting to get to me even more, I need to talk to my doctor as it is getting harder to find a reason to get out of bed in the mornings.(Not suicidal thoughts, just lack of hope.)

Wife still has not mentioned a single thing about her plans. I think/feel right now I am just a breathing ATM machine for her until she can get her plans figured out and get through some medical issues she is dealing with. Then I imagine she will drop the bomb. Oh well at least at that time I will have a focus point to work on. But for now Im just trying to be me