She Say's She Want's Out Of The Marriage

[tbart01]

meg I was wondering where you've been. I hope you're holding up, I've been thinking about you. I'll think about you when I'm there next week.

Meg I really do know not to do that. I will let here initiate that conversation. If you read my post a few days ago, she had asked about addressing the issues and I told her when we're ready.

we are a long ways away if ever from being anywhere near going down that path. I took nothing out of our conversation yesterday other than it was civil and friendly. We have many hurdles ahead.

As a matter of fact, if I went home today and she changed her mind, I wouldn't be ready. She has said too much to try and hurt me for me to allow myself to go through that. i want this to work out in the end, but I have things I need to sort through now.

i love her with all my heart, and I'm grateful she's becoming stronger and more positive. Grateful for her, because she doesn't sound so down and out of energy anymore. However, she's not someone i want to have a relationship with right now. I respect myself too much to let myself be hurt and fooled.

i will re-read DR again before i get home, and I'll continue down that path. Only time and dedication to myself can change my sitch.