Man I feel so bad for you. I know exactly how you feel and I have to tell you that it was painfull for me to read your last post.
This brings back some bad memories for me.
Im guessing that you may have had a few to drink. I dont blame you. Its easy to do in this situation. I did that a few times and it did not help. Only numbs you for a little while and causes you to do something stupid. Trust me on this.
Only thing I can tell you is that things WILL get better for you. It may not seem that way right now but when you hit rock bottom there is only one way to go from there...up.
David I have been exactly where you are about four months ago. It WILL get better man. Trust me on this. Separation, divorce and then detachment were my friends and I did not even know it. I treated them like the enemy. They were in fact my savior. She is doing you a favor David. You deserve better.
If she ever comes back then she will but either way you need to separate yourself emotionally from this as much as possible. Best way to do that is to start thinking about a new life and treat the present situation like it is inevitable because it sounds like it is.
I wish you the best David. I will pray for you.
Me:48 W:55 M:22 T:23 Bomb:19Nov09 S:15Jan10 D:11Feb10 EA:Confirmed on 20Apr10 Fast track to her divorcing me
