She Say's She Want's Out Of The Marriage

[steady]

Of course I want things to work out a certain way, but nothing has given me any indication either way.

Yes it has. You mentioned it earlier. You said you are thinking about the conversation as good and bad. Of course. She gave you mixed messages. You see her as strong and like it on the one hand, then on the same stroke you see her strength may be used against you in the sitch.

You see her talking to you for an hour as a good thing, but then a lot of the conversation wasn't really in the direction you wanted it to. So you focus on the good things..this gives you hope.

Then your mind, in all it's beautiful glory, starts to wander to the parts of the conversation we didn't like. So that takes away hope.

Then you remember you need to detach. So you start doing the mental override thing. It works a little bit. Then you wander back over to the conversation in your mind.

Wash, rinse, repeat.

I've been there. I know the cycle well. Don't worry about it. It's normal. Just keep working on balancing out and finding YOUR center.

I'm just happy I'm doing the right things at this time. It shows how far I have come.

Yes you have. Sometime, go back and read your posts when you first got here. Don't stop moving, don't stop working, don't get fooled into jumping off the path you are on.