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[awest1217]

Had some good conversations with my brother and sister-in-law about finances. We are all into the whole Dave Ramsey thing, at least parts of it. Parts my brother is not ok with because he does investment and insurance so he does not agree with some of that, but over all the saving is what we are focusing on. They understand that for right now I can't do anything firm because I am living paycheck to paycheck, but with that I have been able to save quite a bit since last year at this time I had $200 which was mostly S's money since I hadn't started an account for him yet, so really I had $50. Now I have some savings which we all agreed is an act of God since I was paying for everything by myself. It was really good and I am feeling good.

H didn't contact me since Friday during work, but of course, right on schedule, H texts me his usual "just wanted to say hi and let you know I am thinking about you. love u." All I see when he sends stuff anymore is blah blah blah. My brother asked why I am still being so nice, and I said it really is all just because I still need H to go do somethings for me for example switch the phone into my name, split cell phone bills, pay child support until I can file and get a court order, etc. I did though block him on FB, which I doubt he even notices because he isn't on much. I also blocked OW and her husband. This way I don't check their pages at all. I really am completely detached, but I do think I am suppressing a few of the sad feelings because I do know it is over, but right now I need to stay focused on my goal of getting this over with. I can grieve the loss later. (probably bad, but what I need to do for now).

On the sleep, I think it is from me playing bejeweled the last few weeks before bed. It calms me, but I also get my mind going. I have moved the computer back into the office (it was in my room because S would mess with it). Now I won't do that stuff before bed.

4 day work week then pictures on Friday, easter egg hunt on Saturday, and easter on Sunday then spring break! Yeah! Plus I already have half my spring cleaning done so I am very excited.