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[ClingingToHope]

I've had some vivid dreams about W -- I'm sad when I wake up. The M is only alive in my subconscience.

I can't help you on the sleep stuff since if I know I'm going to be home alone for a few hours then I just take half a sleeping pill. I'm not sure that's good for you because you might have to wake up.

I would try to avoid going past the inlaws, even if it is longer, because yes you'll always look and that just brings everything back.

When I drive to and from work I can cast a quick glance and see if W is home or not since the house is about a block off the main drive. I try not to do this. I try to look the other way. I'm successful 95 percent of the time.