It's great that you are finally able to dettach because that will save you emotionally from all these up and downs. Just make sure that you're not just supressing your feelings though.
Interesting dream situation. It was actually very much like my real situation last year. Almost exactly a year ago, H was completely suicidal. He was depressed, was unhappy all the time, and hated life. I found on his computer google searches for drugs that kill you painlessly or quickly. He had even found the one and wrote down the name of the drug. I told his parents, but like in your dream, they kept insisting how H was fine and how he would really go thru with it, etc etc. I was completely shocked and appalled. That was not something you take lightly and must always be taken as a real threat. I know you're not in the situation to have much impact on H now, but with despression, suicide is unfortunately too common, so if you think that it is a real possibility with H, do what you can to get thru to his parents. It's amazing how in denial these parents can be though! I guess that's just the biased glasses some parents were, but I just hope I'm never as naive with my own S.
Regarding sleeping, one thing that helps is exercise (helps mind and body). Maybe try taking S (in his stroller) on a little jog when you get home or find something else that can get your heartrate going. Then make sure just to find something to calm your mind before you go to bed - veg out on the tv or read a fun book. You could also try deep breathing (big deep breaths then slowly let the air out) to calm your body. I've been doing that recently and it's been helping.
Just keep taking it all one step at a time. I wish H would come around, but at least you are doing what you need to do now and stepping off that hampster wheel.
Me 27; H 28; S 2 Togeth 9; M 4 Sep 11/14/08 EA OW1 Sep 08 EA OW2 Mar 09 EA OW3 Jun 10
