Moving on with my life #2

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I think I am really lonely still and that is what makes me weak and vunerable. Also, my family has meant the world to me and whether he uses that intentionally or not to weasel his way in I don't know.

When he was around I don't remember feeling 'omg I want to jump him'...I remember feeling 'this is nice. Family time. Being together.' I also felt this wierd sense of calm and security. Even though he is the most insecure man to feel that way with, I felt it. Like for the moments things felt right.

Not even sure if its so much exh. Maybe some. But alot of it was getting another taste of what I really wanted my life to be like.