Moving on with my life #2

[Startingover2]

Oh No! I care again! How do I let this happen? UGH! I see it coming, I try and fight it. Put some distance there and it happens again. Maybe its the major events that surround the time together. I admit it...I liked the birthday week. I did keep telling myself this is not who he is, but I still let a part of me get sucked in.

I have put distance there again the past few days. Its hard as I find myself wanting to chat with him. Last night my mommy group had a girls night. Never too wild. Just dinner out somewhere and home by 9. Of course the sucky person in me did a drive by on my way home. Nope. Hes gone. Out. Wherever. Still a cake eater. He had the nerve to text me at 8:30 and do the give baby kisses and goodnight to you text. At 9 he is still out. Must go in the bathroom whereever he is and do his obligatory texts.

Looking at it...he really hasn't done anything outside his pattern. Same thing over and over. Major event coming, break up with gf, guilty about family time he comes closer. 100% right off the bat..then it tapers off. Still makes contact and shows interest but starts to be vague. Then he finds a new interest and is gone.

I don't know where he was or who he was with. Doesn't really matter. What matters to me is I got somewhat sucked in again. Not as bad as last time, but I know my weakness is the 'family time..the sentimental times' that get to me. Daily life I can stand up and go forward.

Ok, standing up again!