I am with you on that one! That's why for now I have kept myself out of harms way. Last weekend when I went out with friends my buddy comes and says "Hey Barb really likes you. I don't know what your situation is ..." Barb is tall attractive blond. Ahhhh! When I separated from my first wife I was all over the place meeting lots of people (ok "meeting" is a euphamism for sex).
This is about healing you. If you run back right now or too soon you'll be back here. This is about taking control of your life. It is an opportunity to grow and stand up for what you believe in and to stand up for yourself. I look at the celibacy thing and think not only am I married and that is principal that I hold with deep respect not only for my spouse but for me. Also I know that I am in a fragile place right now and ANY sexual or romantic situation will distract me from my goals.
In the end I know I can hold my head high. I can say I acted with respect for ME. If I leave I leave on my terms. Not because someone punched me in the guts and I ran away.Then I will be a better person to move on or create my marriage anew with the woman I married.
You have heard me say I wish i had this process in 1st M. I wouldn't have spent so much time beating myself up over its demise. I lost my way.
Life isn't simple is it?
My goal is to some day be the person my dog thinks I am
