She Say's She Want's Out Of The Marriage

[tbart01]

I'm just going through a really tough period right now. I see what I need to do more clearly now as far as the conversation. I now know the difference between validate and stand up for myself. i will in no way lay there like a door mat. i will call the B.S firmly and without anger. I have not at any point during this lost my cool

One thing my D can attest to is the fact that I have not once said anything negative to her about my W. I have let my D know on multiple occasions that I'm always going to be there for her. the problem is I'm not there right now, and that's killing me.

I have made it very clear to my D that I intend to fight for this marriage. It is very fixable, but it will eventually take both of us. Right now there's just one that wants to save it, and that's why my D worries about me. I know that I can do the right thing.

I just want to get this dang deployment over with, so I can stop wondering what is going on. i want to be able to face this crap for real.

This is by far the most difficult thing I've ever had to go through. Going through marriage problems isn't something I recommend in a combat zone.

I'm really trying to keep it together right now, but it's becoming very difficult.