12bar, thank you, that's just what I needed to hear right now. Deep inside I knew I needed to wait and hear people out, but you're right, I'm in shock, shaking, hurting, can't stop drinking water because my mouth is so dry.
I will continue to be dark throughout tomorrow. DH doesn't know where I am. I'm sure he's not even home yet, but in the am when he strolls in, he may not even realize I'm gone, may think I'm with friends. By Sunday night, however, he'll realize and wonder. The kids should tell him that they haven't seen me. I just need time away to read books and read on here. Man, how could I have been so stupid to fall into this again? I know I'm not to blame, but I could have tried to prevent it by keeping up with our R better.
