Okay, so I am trying very hard to dig deep for patience here. I see good stuff happening a lot. I am thinking my H is reconnecting with the kids truly now, not touch and go. He is very hands on with them when he is around (rather than just stepping in when he felt like it, it is more constant) and he is way more equal with them, rather than "favoring" S like he seemed to be before when he would make connections. He is making a conscious effort to be with them.
Financially, he seems to be getting a grip, at least somewhat.
That sense of entitlement that seemed to be always present for months has pretty much disappeared, at least as far as I can tell.
He is nice to me and in the past week or so has done several things simply to help me out (and no, I didn't ask for help), things he hasn't done in forever and forever. He is still not really reconnecting with me, though, and still keeps his life very separate from mine. I guess the spouse comes last. I admit it is sometimes hard to see him so normal with the kids (of course, I am relieved by that) and yet here I am, still left out.
I am trying to dig deep for patience. Outwardly, nothing has changed in the way I go about what I am doing and I still have zero expectations from him. YET I am getting my hopes up and trying so hard not to. This is MLC. He hasn't said a word about wanting to be part of the family again. Who knows what is going on in his mind. Inside sometimes I am screaming HURRY UP but don't want to rush things - I want him to finish.
