8 weeks until D Day!!

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Knitted scarf, thank you for your input but I am going to disagree. I have been with my H for 22 years so that would be a really long time to be proud.

Perhaps I wrote this incorrectly. What I am trying to say is that I put our M before everything else and in the end still lost. Its called unconditional love - not pride.

Yes, I do want my H back. But not on his terms, on terms that are good for both of us. I wont loose myself again or allow myself to be controlled. I am happy with the person I am now and am proud that I gave it all to try to save my M. I know that I can look in the mirror and say I did all I could, obviously the stress of this took a toll on my health. I am sure most of here can say that. My self-worth took a beating as it is hard to accept that the person I have basically grown up with no longer wants to be part of my life.

Actually I take it back. This is exactly what I meant to write. You are certainly entitled to your own opinion and I stand by mine.

I may have forfeited some things but it was worth it. I did not leave, I tried to keep me family together and that is all that matters.

Like I said I am definitely a stronger person for it.

There is one point I will agree with you on. At the moment H is not worth it.