Not sure which way to go anymore

[Mystik]

I have decided that H and I are going to get a 3 bedroom and work on things from there. I was going back and forth, unsure if what I wanted was really what I wanted or my co-dependency, but H pointed out to me how simple it was to figure that out. He asked when I picture us working things out, are we living together or not. And in my head we are always living together. So that is what I want. Now, to stop being so concerned with what everyone is going to think of that choice.

H took DS and I to the movies last night, we saw "How to Tame Your Dragon". It was very cute, I enjoyed it. He is going to take DS later this morning so I can attend my co-dependency support group. I commented that it was a long way for him to drive for just an hour but he assured me it was worth it. Trying not to mind read, but I am thinking he means seeing DS is worth it, not necessarily the helping me out by taking DS. But I could be wrong.

We talked a bit about moving dates and such. One idea I had was to keep my place for the month of June and slowly move my stuff over while DS finishes school, that would also give us one month of being in two separate places. But as H pointed out, that would be another month's rent at my place plus my share of rent at the new place. I am nervous about packing up and moving everything in a one weekend. All the times I've moved it was over the course of a month. That plus the fact I am also nervous we won't find what we need by the time H's move-out date comes along and then what? H wants to start looking in three weeks, mid-April, for a place effective June 1. I still have to tell my landlord that I'm moving out, and don't want to tell him I'll be going June 1st only for him to rent the place out and me have no where to go. If it came to it, though, I'm sure my sister would let DS and I stay with her. At least we won't have to live out of our car.

Time to go get ready for CODA.