Honestly, it doesn't sound like you want to save your M. I mean if you don't want to drop just $14 for the book, then it doesn't seem you're committed. IMO.
DR isn't something you can just get the "gist" of. It really does take awhile to understand and experience. It just seems you're pretty indifferent which is surprising given your sitch.
Are you interested in "saving" your M?
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
