The day after our fight my W gave me a kiss and a hug that lasted a second longer than usual. She squeezed tighter which made be think what was different? My W still won't go to bed until 4 or 5 in the morning. Instead she chooses to sleep on the couch for most of the night.
I keep fighting back the thoughts of leaving her. One moment I want to stay and then the next moment I want to go. I've been staying for D8 who's now D12. My D's has seen how my W acts toward the two of us, but she prefers to be with her mom than me. Maybe it's an age thing or maybe she's gotten tired of being around me. Whatever the reason it hurts to be rejected by her too.
I hope and pray my W is turning the MLC corner. I've been keeping my guard up and I hope it doesn't deter her from coming out of the MLC haze.
Not much of what she does bothers me any more. When she take off on spur of the moment trip, I hoped it was for good. When she goes out at night I don't care when she comes home. When she gets ill from drinking too much - I'm there for her, but I don't know why.
