My main focus is to put my pieces back together and keep them together. This last blow of Dick's, having D stay out there with him really rocked me emotionally. But that is what happens N is given complete control by the system... he knows he can do anything he wants.
D called last night, or her alter ego called... She went into how she wants to go into the Navy and study in the Nuclear Propulsion area, where it's best suited for her, because of her math and science abilities. She pushed until I said, they won't let you ride on the subs, and that leaves aircraft carriers or the dirtiest little nuke plants in the country, and I don't want you to be put in harms way.
Well, she told me that after the navy gives her this expensive education, they aren't going to put her in harm's way... she's just going to travel the world and have the best college education anyone can offer.
I said, you'll really enjoy boot camp... she said I won't have to do any push ups, as long as I can run. I bit my lip, really, really hard.
I could hear how she's been sold on this, she even told me she's already talked with a recruiter. With this knowledge, I told her, she could have written a ticket to anywhere with an education from Stanford, her income inconceivable.... She told me the only other place she could get the education she wants is to go to MIT...
I laughed, couldn't help it. This child wanted to be a teacher and a swimming instructor before going out to California. She honestly believes the 30,000 or so she'll be making in the Navy is more than what she would have made with a regular college education.
Basically, I left her with I love you, and wishing her the best of luck with her plans.... I told her I didn't agree with the direction she has chosen now... and that I pray she remembers what truly makes/made her happy before she signs anything.
So, Snodderly, you are probably right. D is beautiful, intelligent, articulate, multilingual, and everything an N personality would need from his source. She used to see through him, and now is sucked into his world. He's every bit of satin's blood...
I really do miss my little girl. Picking up the pieces, is a must, and for now, is my focus. I pray she opens her eyes soon, before she makes any life altering choices. She too needs to come back to who she really is.
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you.........
