HI...Thanks KAW..I feel like I have been run over by a 18 wheeler....I don't usually feel sorry for myself and am trying real hard not to let it get the best of me.I guess not feeling good is a good excuse..plus my Dad, who is in nursing home, has not been doing too good..filling up with fluid..so all plays on and with the mind.. I have thought about sending him a card..even a letter with ALL my feelings, but thought that was the easy way out..he needs to hear it from me face to face.. yet it seems like things are going backward for him..or am I ASSuming?? If he thinks we need to do something"legal" about this so we aren't inlimboland, why would I want to keep making the effort to get him to notice any changes...I don't feel like trying to do anymore db'ing if he has it in his head the m is over.SO whoever wants to take a whack at me..go ahead..I know this does not sound like I want to save the m..I do more than anything, but I am not going to make a fool of myself with him.
I am going to talk to Pastor Thurs..see if she has any suggestions...if he beleives that a d is what he needs..then I will not fight it...I will do the best I can for myself, but you can't change someones mind if they have it set on something. Now mind you, h has never beeen a difficult person..never a "have to have it my way" person..if that descibes anyone it would be more me..but he did not make much effort to piece m back before he moved, as in his head he wanted out..seems the same now...let's not take the risk and work on the m, let's get d....who knows..I feel mixed up.
Sorry I am rambling again.....
work was not too bad..will get worse before better.
