Good day Sue,
Yuuuckk! A cold around the holidays ... always a combo that will put a damper on the ole PMA and gets those doubts stirrin'. Hope you're feeling better now and had a good time at MIL's to help recharge your "batteries" ... and speaking of batteries ... hope the "go-live" with the new computer system today didn't cause any additional stress there either.

... and stop running yourself over with a 4x4! It doesn't matter how many times you need to repeat yourself here if you haven't found a solution yet that you are comfortable with ... THAT'S WHY WE'RE HERE ... to help try to find something that will work for you. Take me for instance, I been feeling like I've been going around in circles for over six months now, I just gettin' more & more dizzy. ... and over the holiday to feel like I'm spinning like a top, but that's for my thread if I get the time...

Sue, having face-to-face talk to expose your feelings to H is understandably daunting and can very well feel like an overwelming obstacle to approach. Instead of looking at it as one big talk, what if you started to chip away at it a little at a time? Maybe little "forget-me-nots" (no I don't mean the flowers), little actions that can say the words for you, like ... sending a greeting card to his address along the theme of "...just thinking of you" or "hope you're having a good day" (to this day, CAW still keeps in her breifcase for work such a card I gave her last year.) . Picking up a book that you think he'd enjoy reading or a favorite snack food that he may not think of picking up himself. Ways to express your feeling to him without having to saying it nor making feel like persuit, by keeping it on a friendship level rather than a romantic level.

Oh ... ran out of time again ...

'til later,
KAW