Her heart has already left

[AmyBel]

I've been off the board since I started having trouble with my eyes. Turns out I have glaucoma (a structural defect in the eye) and ended up having an acute attack on weds night. Luckily, they were able to save my sight!

W has been very solicitous over the phone (I'm at my internship site) and insists on coming down to drive me back home on Monday.

I admit it. I'm enjoying the resumption of our usual connection, mutual sharing, mutual caring. I realize that she's stepping up due to my health, but it can't be a bad thing to remind both of us of the ways in which our marriage works...

I continue to believe that she is NOT continuing the EA.
She continues to periodically remind me that the reality is that she's "in love" with someone else, and isn't sure she can permanently walk away from that.
I continue to work on visualizing a life without her, to train myself to not need her so that I can choose or not choose (or accept her choice) about our relationship without self destruction, lizard brain fight or flight reaction, etc.

Feels like a long and painful road.

I'm saving the Robx. That is EXACTLY what needs to happen if it turns out the EA is NOT suspended.

Thankyou passenger: ignore everything they say and 1/2 of what they do...