Not much to report so your catching up shouldnt take long...
Had a decent day at work, reeled all day though...UGH.
Gonna GAL tonight w/ a friend from work...watch a movie, shoot some pool. This weekend golf, clean, and beach- weather permitting.
Staying clear from the vortex physically, but mentally somewhat consumed today- possibly b/c of the first thoughts waking up.
Find myself angry for the past and various days that were pivotal for my sitch. I really need to forgive myself. Funny how M is all imprtant to the LBS and trivial to the WAS.
I cant help but to feel used and thrown out...I know what my NUTS are and I know I deserve better...sadly I remember that W deserved better too.
Whats w/ my nostalgia?!
I can remember the first day we went NC, W came back and wanted to work things out...3 days later, coming home drunk- she couldn't do it anymore...
Whatever...I cant wait to only post my GALs- I could do it now but I'd be lying as so much more goes through my mind...
ie- is W really being true to herself- am I delusional and in denial? Is W running, or is she truly done and SURE of what she wants? Is she acting on her own judgement or acting out the scenario she created w/ friends and family?
reg- her attitude of M and Love is not in line w/ my own...so there's the problem.
Anyhoo...Eric, thanks for the prayers, Mindfull, thanks for checking up on me.
