Just journaling...can't sleep...and my sleep is rarely interrupted..I have so much going on in my head..questions to ponder..
Am I ready to just give in and tell h to move on with a d? Some days I am....I am tired.. mentally and physically..have a cold and cough..so I try to rationalize this.I keep rehearsing all the tings I want to tell h..why am I so chicken to call him and tell him to meet me or that i am coming over to his apt..and then just tell him how I feel?? Why..I don't know..insecurity..fear..what else do I have to lose..I know I sound like a broken record, and most of you are tired of hearong it again...but I need to go somewhere to vent and replay it all..so bear with me As i was shopping, I noticed all the couples together and felt sad..then I think..well this could be my last year with inlaws as part of family..and feel sad...I am just in a mood that I have not been in for along time. Help someone knock some sense into me!!!!
Also, new computer program at work goes live Monday..and most of the staff don't know wtf to do with it...should be interesting.
We are going to MIl's for thanksgiving dinner..so it should be fun..
