I hope everyone had a blessed Thanksgiving.. Just post Thanksgiving journaling...MIL is out of state this year and we are having dinner on Sunday..so I asked h if he would like to come over and have homemade pizza for thanksgiving..he said he would...his sister also came..it was so great..he laughed and it was like old times...he even took his shoes off and lef them where he always did..AND put his wallet on buffet in d-room..like he always did......I know it sounds silly, but he has not done either of these for most of the visits he has come over...so to me to see them there was a warm fuzzy feeling...he brought his laundry to do, and did not ask first, as he has done in the past...
Do any of these things mean anything...probably not...but they made me feel good..
Something is bugging me and I should not even expect to be asked, but at church I saw a sign that the staff party is Dec 14, and for the past 4 years I have gone..even last year he asked me.....so why is it bugging me that if he does not ask me this year then I really will know that he is detaching from me...living his life as a single...I should not even be thinking about things like that...we are s.........so I need to refoccus on that and to start to let go..for good.........but it is soooooooooo hard to let go of 25 years.........I thought I was stronger than I feel on some days...
