Fast track to her divorcing me

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OMG, Major event today.

I may or may not have the closure I have been looking for.

Me and XW had a phone discussion today. She brought up once again how she wants me to move on with my life etc.

I told her I needed closure from her to do that sucessfully.

Then she dropes me another bomb. She basically tells me that she married me out of convenience and wanted to leave after my Son was grown. She changed her name because she still loved her first husband.

Here is the problem with this. She DID NOT actually say that to me she just agreed to it since I told her that all this was my own rationalization behind what she did.

At this point I think I could have said anything and she would have agreed to it to bring me closure. So Im right back to where I started from. Do not know if she is just agreeing with me or if this is the truth.

Man why do I keep doing this to myself. I need to just forget about her and concentrate on my friends and maybe dating or something. At least I will spend the night with a friend. She will take my mind off of all this BS at least for today.

FWIW, XW did volunteer that she is not seeing an OP. But it goes back to what they say about MLCers. Trust none of what they say and only half of what they do.

Either way two facts remain. One is that she wants nothing to do with me and, Two, I need to detach from her to the point where I just do not give a sh**. Just not there yet and may never be. This is why I can relate to Cautious. I guess Im just not as strong as I thought I was. But I am in a better place now than before.

I guess it's true what they say. It really does take at least a year or more to get over this.