Steak and a good bottle of wine...one of the simple things in life that I really enjoy.
I am going into the city tomorrow night for a bachlorette party. It is so bittersweet to celebrate marriage related events in the midst of M mayhem. I will be attending my first wedding solo in over 10 years. Yikes. Followed by another one in May. I hope it won't be too much of a challenge keeping it together.
I am having an uneasy feeling today..I am not so sure my H A is over. I am thiking that I want to expose his A to his coworkers (bosses already know) anonymously? That would make it full exposure. Any ideas?
There is a good piece on this in my thread if I knew how to snip it here I would. I think it was Lost for Words. You can force compliance which is what has happened here so far but it's almost like a dog, he will pay attention while you have a treat in your hand and then its off to the next thing. Chasing squirrels.
Until he decides to commit for his own sake then you'll be in this little game with him. And .....
You're still attached.
I am only about a week ahead of you on this little detachment curve. If you are wondering wether he is still having A then you are still in the emotional grip of this situation and you will not be able to focus on your self. How much time have you wasted thinking about this issue today?
I spent 2 days a week or so ago obsessing over stupid, vapid blond friend of W telling her that I was not worthy of my W. I fired off an email to the friend telling her to stay out of my marriage. Stupid. This is just noise Lola. Don't do it. You will ruin two days or more of your life on it.
You keep wanting to yank his chain. Let the chain go. He's going to do what he wants anyway.
When you go to wedding thing this weekend try out my speech
"Where's your H?"
"He was abducted Aliens ..."
It works! No one will want any more details.
My goal is to some day be the person my dog thinks I am
Oh I get it. I had one two nights ago. That won't stop for a while. I have one once a week. That's what triggered my war path behavior toward W's stupid friend. I had a dream. Woke up. Almost threw up. Couldn't go back to sleep. Dog woke up for about exactly one second, let out a big sigh out and plopped his big head back down on the bed. So I was alone with my thoughts in the middle of the night. Not that he was going to help but sometimes his sympathetic face is all it takes to calm my soul.
Next day I saw email from stupid friend. I know I shouldn't have been snooping. But that's the craziness I speak of. I fired at her with both barrels.
That was my epihany. You can control this and the sooner you take control the better it will be.
Your thoughts lead to emotions so don't think about it. Catch yourself and think a happy thing and say it over and over until the thought goes away.
My goal is to some day be the person my dog thinks I am
H sent me the email that she sent him...how should I respond to my H? "Tell her sianara" "Tell her..Don't let the door hit you in the a** on the way out" "Adios bi*tch"
I feel like I want to cry. I know this doesn't fix anything.....but it is a very small step in the right direction.
Puppy where are you...you always have wise things to say. I don't want to sound excited..at all. But I will have to respond to this before I got bombarded with texts, phone calls and emails.
