New here but have been a voyeur

[Truegritter]

Oh I get it. I had one two nights ago. That won't stop for a while. I have one once a week. That's what triggered my war path behavior toward W's stupid friend. I had a dream. Woke up. Almost threw up. Couldn't go back to sleep. Dog woke up for about exactly one second, let out a big sigh out and plopped his big head back down on the bed. So I was alone with my thoughts in the middle of the night. Not that he was going to help but sometimes his sympathetic face is all it takes to calm my soul.

Next day I saw email from stupid friend. I know I shouldn't have been snooping. But that's the craziness I speak of. I fired at her with both barrels.

That was my epihany. You can control this and the sooner you take control the better it will be.

Your thoughts lead to emotions so don't think about it. Catch yourself and think a happy thing and say it over and over until the thought goes away.