Alaska.. I do appreciate your advice and support, so I don't meant to sound harsh here...but I have gotten a life..if you have followed any of my past year..I have done some major changing... I have found a whole new other life out there..and I have not worried about what he is up to, until this past week when a major change took place..and i think it is natural to have some bad thoughts and feelings come back.....so I am sorry for sounding rude, but I take offense when someone who probably has not been following me for a long time assumes that i need to do all these things that I have already worked very hard at.
Again... sorry it sounds harsh..another change..I sometimes tell it how I see and feel it..
