OH..Shiny..I know..I know...I am feeling sooo great right now...oh this roller coaster is making me dizzy. I know I will be ok no matter what....it is sad though to think about losing 25 years of your life..but I have my health..kids...so many things that matter......if I get my h back..as I think Wilma said it will be the icing on the cake.....
I am off to a movie with some friends..a definate 180 for me...called h after work to tell him about roof guy and we laughed about something on the phone..as we hung up I told him to have a great bowling night..a sore subject for several years,as ff is his partner...we are so opening up our hearts to each other.....that's when I can't let myself get too excited..I need to put some guard down..there is a pesimistic side to me that says it may not turn around and I don't want to get my hopes too high.
