Not sure to be honest. He now tells me that he realizes what he has done to me over the past years and thinks I deserve better. He tells me he hates himself and can't forgive himself for all of the stuff he has done. The thing I don't get is he made a big deal about how I was in such a great mood all the time even with all this stuff going on with us and how it bothered him so much yet if he didn't care then he wouldn't have even said anything to me about it?
