!Help! Need Advice and encouragement!

[stark648]

I showed her plenty of emotions when we were together--

What she's talking about:

I did not cry during our discussions when she was telling me she was leaving and I did not seem hurt enough, I guess... I don't really know why (at first)-maybe some anger and frustration and pride, I don't know--seems more like denial or detachment for my sanity--I was hurting bad. I was upset and sad and fearful, but the tears didn't come out.--it was like shock.

Later, like when she picked up the motorcycle, I was being upbeat and trying to appear strong and 'together' to be attractive, etc.

That was one time (of a few) she said I never really fought for her--with tears in her eyes.

Maybe I've screwed up by not showing enough sorrow ?

I thought the begging, pursuing, crying, etc. was 'bad'--but she's kinda backwards on things anyway--what do you think?