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I just need to step off this bound for hell ride.


Yes step off - detach. Trust me it is hard and quite honestly I am no where near where I need to be but keep at it. Keep at it.

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I have no intention of confronting her. I know it wont work.

No it won't work. Trust me I did it and did it the wrong way. Stick with the STFU approach. You will save yourself a lot of grief.


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Eric I just see her and all I want is to be able to touch her and hold her. It is killing me.


I go thru the same thing buddy. It kills me too but when I was able to detach for a day or two I did feel better. By the way it may feel like it is killing you know but what does not kill you makes you STRONGER - just remember that.

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I tried faking being happy but she saw right through it and she asked me what was wrong but I just kept my mouth shut. But she knew something was wrong, and asked me what was wrong multiple times


I've done and still do the same so I get it buddy. All you can do IMO is try and find things that make YOU truly happy. You cannot control what she does but you can control you.

Keep your head up man - you will get thru this.

God Bless,
Eric


"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter".
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