Hi Mila, thanks for writing that. I went through the exact same thing as you. It's good to know it wasn't just me!
But the strange thing is that it was a better place then, then I am in now. Because we tried reconciling after several months, and at first it was awesome, but it quickly became very dark and I felt like I'd been demoted from wife to... cook and booty call. It was horrible, so I stopped it, figuring he wasn't ready to come back yet (i.e. wouldn't leave his other "life" for me/us). THEN the worst of the mornings started. Even worse then before, which were like yours!
There's something about the anger in the beginning and the shock that I think actually buffers you a bit!!
