I know I posted earlier today but I wanted to start a new post with an email my husband sent me about 2 weeks ago. Also I want you to know he told me two days ago that he can't make me happy the way I should be made happy and that I deserve someone better.
Here is the email: since we dont talk anymore, i figured at some point you will check email. i dont know how to do this anymore; i feel like i'm less than dirt. in fact, i feel like i often felt living at home growing up...belittled, worthless and feeling like i am 1 inch tall. the simple fact that you have not even remotely said anything to disregard the 'you deserve much better than me' comment(s) made by both you and i, has really just burned into me the last week or so. i know its true, and apparently you are well aware of it, and dont feel the need to disprove it. i dont feel welcome in my own house. i dont see the boys much because apparently there is the need for them to go to your moms all the time. we dont have any kind of communication...at all. i cant deal with the mind games of 'im going to talk to an attorney', 'but im not', 'im going to schedule a therapist appt' , 'but im not'. i dont make enough money. im not good enough to live with or be with and you should be with someone much better. you walk around the house singing, humming and having a good time. nothing seems to bother you. if you are that far moved on, then please just go. i cant do this, and its like being taunted that you are happy and satisfied with life when you see how horrible i feel on a daily basis. i dont really have anything else to say, but i think that about covers it.
You should post this in the thread you already have. It's easier to keep one thread going until it locks - there will be a group of people who will follow your sitch and help you along the way, if you start up new posts they won't know where to find you. Keep it in one thread and they will help you.
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Katie- hi- where is your other post? This sounds somewhat like what I think my H is thinking right now, so I'm interested in reading your story if you post the link---
When the men on the chessboard Get up and tell you where to go; And you've just had some kind of mushroom And your mind is moving slow; Go ask Alice... I think she'll know.
When the men on the chessboard Get up and tell you where to go; And you've just had some kind of mushroom And your mind is moving slow; Go ask Alice... I think she'll know.
