Thank you Meatpuppet ( silly name eh?)

This is like a rollacoaster and I go up and down more than I thought possible. Me, the very together , sure of herself , controlled and dependable individual. Was I living in a word of fantasy or what?

I will stick to the plan even if I have to mentally carry myself kicking and screaming about how unfair the world is and all that happy crap. Who ever said that life was fair and I believe him/her ??!! I am getting over the bitterness of this and gaining understanding and acceptance.One good think about all of these is that I am learning a lot about being a better person and also about myself.

The exercise is definitely going to help a lot, actually now that I mention it I can answer a question Corri was asking someone and that got mention again by Carlotta : How did you HD people coped with the sex issue when single? Me, I exercised a lot, it would normally take away all that nervious energy the sexual frustration left in me, also I had made a habit of "flying solo" as often as needed and the not very effective cold showers , However for you LD people out there that are wondering why is such a big deal now, since we HD people can do what we used to do when single to deal with our sexuality now also. Let me tell you....is hundrends of times worse when you have the person you love and desire right in front of you day in and day out, sharing the same bed, walking around the house naked (like my H always does)or being just so lovable and cute and funny. It is HELL! I keep on doing everything , except for the exercise. I will start the execising like I used to do, hopefully that will help in the energy expenditure, mind peace and my looks, which I miss more than my husband would ever miss.

Here I go again, 1 step forward, 2 steps back, 3 steps forward.......

I am here for the long haul, I will stick to the plan no matter what!