Thanks Eric- I am by no means someone to follow- I have effed up at ever turn...do I want my M...yes...but right now there is only me...does that keep me from reeling...no.
The one day I would want to relive if at all possible was 8/23/09- that was the day my M could have been saved...that was the day I failed my W and failed my M...I never thought our first fight would be our last.
But, my NUTS are in tact...there's nothing at all w/o a heartfelt apology...even then there may be nothing...
all I can do is move on, learn from my mistakes and be the man I need to be for me, and maybe I'll be able to keep a W and a healthy M
