She was afraid I was going to sneakily adopt d-15 and keep her from seeing her anymore, so she wanted bio-dad to 'hold' her until she could afford to raise her--(also to jack w/me and d-15). But she admitted she was paranoid and depressed.

She's bi-polar and depressed, and her therapist has told her she doesn't need meds. Meds seem to work for a while, then they don't.

I think she doesn't believe there is a chance for us, even if she wanted to fight for me. And she says I deserve better? Maybe she means someone that wants me sexually and/or someone not so screwed up...

I was trying not to R-talk, but I had to do that so she would know where I stand w/ d-15 and her seeing the girls. I also needed to bust the delusion I've become this vengeful monster.

She seemed very upset that I had never showed emotion about us divorcing.--more than once she has asked--I think she thinks I'm not really hurt, or ?.
Is there anything I should do or say?

I didn't really explain, I had just asked her if it would have made a difference...she said she didn't know, but she looked kinda wistful.


M:48
W:35
S:16
D:15
D:10
Md: 12 & 1/2 years
bomb: Jan 8 ?
she moved out about then also
Moved in w/OM soon after