Concerned, I am so pleased you took my comments in the way they were intended. I worry that I may be too blunt for you.
I too was a amazed you are learning the Hustle. How about your secret being, I'm hot too so come girls join the queue" !
I wonder what it was / is that made you such a private person? to the point of it impacting so much on your life.
Only child, older parents, strong mother, extremely shy, I could guess away but we must look to the future and I have a feeling that if we scratched the surface enough and dug really deep you could be one passionate guy, you just need a good woman.
Throw caution to the wind (what have you got to loose-no really I mean it) and really believe in yourself that you are a hot male.Develop that swagger not in a cocky way but in a confident way,nothing appeals to a woman more than confidence.
I think a night on the town with Dr. Love would do you both good.
You still got your dog?
You ever had a massage or tried yoga/ meditation or the like?